I was spending time with some friends tonight when I overheard a conversation that I assume is about someone I know. I am 99% sure that it is the person I thought it was about and I began to think about how I hoped that what was being said was not true. Some facts probably were, but may have just been from the past with misinterpretation of the present. I certainly hope so...and here is why...
Everyone makes mistakes. I have made mistakes and I know some people who about some of them, and some people know about all of them. One of them I have never made public outside of a few trusted (and one who turned out to be not so trustworthy) individuals. The fact is that years ago I cheated on a girlfriend who loved me tremendously. No, I did not sleep with the other woman, but there was emotional infidelity and I kissed her on more than one occasion. She was gracious enough to forgive me and never held it against me. They say, "Once a cheater, always a cheater" and that was something that I even touted and believed in for a good portion of my life. It is no longer a belief of mine because if that is the case then there is no way that I can ever have a functional, romantic, and trusting relationship in my life. No chance of love. The one thing I would take over anything else offered to me in life. I have to believe that I can change... I will be a sad and lonely individual if I cannot...
People can change. I hope that the person referenced initially has indeed changed. I hope that I have changed. I feel I have, but I know some do not feel as much. On top of that, I am ever regretful and ashamed of my transgressions... I do not really know what else to say without repeating myself. It is very simple and yet quite complex.
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